Sorry guys, just need to vent and hubby just doesn't get it...
I'm having a BAD day with Batty. I have today off, which doesn't happen too often, but it does happen. I know that bad days happen but this one has knocked me for six.
I've been trying to work on my bond with Batty, because it isn't a strong bond. I feed him, walk him, play with him, take him for toilets, train him, take him to puppy school, basically I do everything for him that he needs.
I'm starting to think that I've been doing too much reading about young puppies and what you're supposed to do. Batty is my first EVER puppy, and I love him to bits, I wouldn't trade him for anything in the world. Adult dogs have never been a problem to me, so why is this puppy giving me such a headache?
I've had good leadership thrust down my throat again and again, I've been doing almost everything by the book (I'm flexible but the theory is still the same) and I'm starting to think it's a big crock of merde...
I'm at the point of wanting to throw out the books and do it all by myself, but I'm scared of that too because I don't want a monster puppy, but following the books is giving me a little monster who instead of having lessened sep anx is getting worse with it. I don't make a fuss when we leave (he's crated anywhere from 15 mins to 45 mins before we leave) I don't let him out the second I get home and when I do let him out I take him outside for the toilet and he gets his hello's after that.
I'm proud of the fact that he is very brave and doesn't get scared easily. I'm proud of him understanding the commands he does, although he's more of a hand signal type of puppy. I'm ecstatic that he's a happy healthy pup.
Today he is running away from me when I call him (no I don't chase), barking at me like mad for no reason, jumping on the couches, he's somehow gotten hold of 3 DVD's and destroyed them (that's going to be fun to explain to hubby) and generally being a little bas*ard.
I want to tear my hair out, I want to start all over again but I don't know where to start.
Sorry for the whining, self pity crud, I honestly just needed to let it all out.