I write this with tears running down my face.
Today I came home from work to pools of blood across the floor and my baby boy Tae laying on the floor dripping with blood. Bite wounds all across his body.
I took him to the vet who told me it would costs thousands to help him but it wouldn't guarantee that he would survive and because I didn't have enough money and didn't know anyone who could give me that kind of money I sadly had to choose to put my dog to sleep.
I've never cried so much and so hard in my life.
I've come home to have to mop up his blood. I was bawling my eyes out, not just traumatic to see so much blood but also because of how it happened and that I wasn't going to see my boy again and as morbid as this might sound, I felt like I was mopping the last part of him that remained. My heart is broken.
I will never forget this day.
My dog Bailey is 3yo and was the sweetest dog in the world, she would charm everyone she would meet and yet she was the core reason for Taes demise. She did this.
The vet told me he would usually see this kind of damage from dogs who are trained to kill.
Bailey wanted Tae dead. He had puncture wounds all across his body, his face/chest/legs/groin/tail.
I wasn't home when this happened and i will forever blame myself and will always feel guilty because I will always wonder if i could of done something to prevent it.
Bailey never shown signs of aggression. Always so sweet and grew up with Tae, always ate together with no fights, always played together with no issues.
So to come home to this bloody sight is something i cannot even describe, I was in shock.
I have 2 issues now which is what Im essentially trying to get to.
How do I cope with the loss of my dog after what's happened?
I will never look at Bailey the same, my feelings towards her has changed dramatically. I don't want her around.
Don't get me wrong, I love her but I don't want her around anymore. I will never forgive her for what she's done.
My other question is, what do I do with Bailey?
I would greatly appreciate anyones kind words and help.