My life with Zeppelin had emotional moments, but the worst was the day
when he went to rainbow bridge.....
It started with the normal morning routine of me getting up out of bed & letting Zep out for his morning toilet run & play.
I had returned home from driving the kids to school as usual, but this time Zep was not there to greet me when I walked around the backyard.....I usually heard the sound of his collar ID tag jingle-jangling against the studs of collar.....I called out for him a few times & I began to panic because he had still not shown himself. I kept looking for him for & I did find him lying under the box trailer. I new something horrible was wrong with him.. because he never just lays there & not greet us. The unhappy look on his face told me to get him to the Vet ASAP, ever tried to drive with a 20 kilo Stafford on your lap. I got to the Vet & had to wait for what seemed like eternity.. 10mins actually, while waiting Zep did his usual thing & walked for the door, I thought he wanted to go to the toilet, but he struggled to walk back to our car, guess he just wanted to go back home. After some 30min check-up & the usual health ?'s, the Vet suspected poisoning, so the Vet run some blood tests..the results were anemia / internal hemorrhaging. The Vet also took ultra sounds & Xrays.. the results were shocking..Zeppelin had a tumor that had nearly engulfed all of his stomach., his liver & kidneys had start to fail also. The Vet had suspected the tumor had only just erupted a few hours ago, for the life of me I could not understand how he didn’t show any physical / emotional signs that he was very sick, Vet told me that is a Stafford’s trait- they are very strong, stubborn & don’t like to show that they are unwell. Zeppelin was put on life support & more tests were being run... I was sent out side & to wait, during the waiting time, the Vet had come to speak to inform that it was to late to operate.. the tumor had done too much damage to his organs, and he has only 5% survival rate & Zep may only have a 1-2 hours of life left.....
Well from that moment on I was in shock so to speak. I was given the option of ending Zep’s life humanely, at that moment I just wanted to be with him & couldn’t make that decision to end his life at that moment.
The Vet was so kind that she allowed Zep & I to use her own personal office during his last few hrs or so, I did not want him to die in a cold sterile environment.
I sat there just holding him on my lap, talking & crying to him for what seemed like eternity... he kept on looking at me sadly - but happily at the same time.. he was so brave even his tail gave a little wag. I think Zep knew this was going to be our final farewell.
I know I had to make that horrible decision... I did not want Zep to suffer anymore pain, the Vet had gone to get the liquid of death, while the Vet had gone... Zeppelin had given me his biggest smile - he rubbed his face against mine... I swear there were tears in his loving eyes..... he then took his last breath. I felt it & his last heart beat against my stomach..... from that moment on I was completely numb.
I wouldn’t even stop cuddling him.... I held him for about 20 minutes longer.. the Vet had to take Zeppelin's body from me..
I decided that Zeppelin would be buried under his favorite sunny spot in the garden. The Vet had prepared Zep's body for home burial.
I was in such an emotional state that the Vet rang my husband & arranged for him to pick up Zeppelin later that afternoon,
My husband & a few of his Tradie’s had came home to prepare Zeppelin's gave.
We held a funeral for Zeppelin later that afternoon... even the big boy Tradie’s found it very emotional..... I don’t think I ever seen big boofy tough beer drinking men that quiet before.
We buried Zeppelin's collar - lead - harness & his favorite chew stick with him.
I know I will never forget that dreaded day...the day I took alive Zeppelin to the Vet & I left the Vet alone....with only Zeppelin’s collar & 12 loving years full of fantastic fond loving happy memories.....
November 1995 - 10th August 2007.